Unnecessary Doubts

Posted on Thursday, 15 December 2011 at 01:30

voila, the moment I've sent her a message--- there she goes again.
I promised myself not to read anymore of her blasted text messages but then again, I can't help myself and peeked. But of course, it lasted 2 seconds and there it goes--- into the bin.

I don't quite understand why some people doesn't even know how to stop. Bloody hell. In any case, isn't it hard to-- simply do what you want? To do something that pleases you? To decide for what you really deserve and not just because Daddy wants it. Is that really hard to absorb? I mean, what the heck is wrong with you? You're already in a legal age, graduated a bachelor's degree for pete's sake, yet--- you still need someone's damn advice or rather whine about every blasted miseries you've encountered each day. Can't you do something about it on your own? You still need your daddy to support you? I mean, yeah sure, as long as daddy wants it, that's fine by me. Who cares about my opinion. Yeah, I get it. But pester someone else about it. Since, it's your f*cking choice. *smiley inserted*


Don't count on me bébé, because I have problems on my own which I have to solve--- of course, on my own. And I don't need anymore of that rubbish to burden moi. This is giving me alot of headache and I'm not very pleased. I've regretted that I've ever texted you again--- for what--- a simple greeting.

I can't help myself get infuriated by these "matters"? whatever its called. It's just, I don't have someone to turn to when it comes to complaint; simply because I have only few who can really understand my situation and most of them are inadequate. SO, I chose not to ask for their opinion and follow my instinct instead. People, as we know, are only thinking about themselves--- or if they do care--- that's when they're really crazy about them--- nonetheless--- you can't rely on them (on stuff that has nothing to do with them). Because no matter what, people only think of themselves--- in short--- we are all selfish. No matter how we try to deny it, we are all that. Anywho, according to Orson Welles: "We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone". Bear that in mind and constantly remind yourself that no one can help you but yourself. :)

PS
BTW, am not saying that you can't ask your Daddy for support/advice or whatever it is you needed--- but if you're gonna complain about stuff that, "I don't have a choice, do I?" or "I really wanna quit this job but my Dad wants me to continue" thingy. And just let them rule your life then--- that's absurd. I understand that we might not have all the power to choose what we wanna do with our lives but if you're thinking because someone's stopping you for doing what you want especially when there's a possibility you can refuse it, then that's kinda --- complicated. Start deciding what's best for you---you might lose it forever---the chance to be "YOU" and then you'll forever be binded by the laws that your Father created. Mind you, we do have a choice and it's up to us and not because of what others dictate us--- whether we like it or not, that's how it is. We just have to face it; not runaway from it. I've learned that, the hard way.