what to remember... DON'T EVER GIVE UP!

What to remember...

I was watching this new anime Sekaiichi Hatsukoi (just ended though) and there's this protagonist who thinks like me and acts like me (although he's a guy). But the difference between him and I, he still thinks way ahead of me, he kept moving forward and never converted his fear into weakness. I mean, he definitely doesn't want to be there; working into the Manga department, that is.

Reasons would be: 1.) it's not his field (he's a proofreader of the literature department) 2.) The one who made him like that (reason to become so JADED) and the least person he wants to meet again is there (have the same work place and to top it all it's his BOSS! talk about how worst that must have been for Onodera).

If that happened to me, I'd definitely back off and find another job... I'd definitely run away...escape... that's what I would do if I were in his situation, and that--that's what I want to work out. I want to grow up, I don't want to run away anymore. I have to face my problems, my difficulties, and turn my weakness into strength. I don't want to run anymore; just because I hate failure I try to run away from it (but not anymore, Am not that weak)... besides failure is absolute, there's no need to fear failure, every now and then we commit mistake, and it's only natural since we're just HUMANS.

So this time, my challenge would be, whatever hardship may come in my life, I'll try my best to do what's best and what's right, I should think just like Onodera Ritsu. Even though he has all the reason of the world to quit the Marukawa Publishing, he didn't! And I love his wit, his ideals and his strong perceptions of life and his qualities to fight and he keeps his cool and positively move forward even though he had his traumas.

He never used his weakness to quit, he converted his weakness to strength in order to face his fears. I admire Onodera. I will try to remember what he did to overcome his fears, I should follow his footsteps. If by chance I had to face a difficulty just like he did, I will try my best not to run a way (i won't promise) but I will do my best, the best that I can... and I won't resort to escaping anymore just to alleviate my anxiety.

Facing your fears is one way to grow up. And I will try my best to do the same like what Onodera did. Thank you also for the author of Sekaiichi Hatsukoi, Nakamura Shungiku because I love her works... and, by Onodera Ritsu, I was reborn. Thank you. You inspire me. And that's what I like about Japanese, they don't run away just because of personal issues, they prove themselves that even if they're "shirouto" they give the best of what they can or more.

Shirouto = amateur; novice