7/4/11

What is something you would never want to change about yourself?

In my LJ account, I stumble upon a certain question that intrigued me... so, am gonna share you my thoughts about the question: What is something you would never want to change about yourself?

That would be my way of dealing people. I've been told that I'm really not good with dealing with friends since I'm making them adjust because of my nasty attitude. That person said that she's trying to change my "weakness" to prevent unnecessary heartbreaks in the future like what happened to our friendship.

But, even though she said that, and I totally believe she's right, I still don't think I need to change my ways with dealing people, be it being dominant and selfish. I maybe like that and I maybe forcing them to adjust just because I have a bit personality problem it doesn't mean I have to change completely for their sakes.

I mean, why would you change who you are just for the benefit of others? You're totally lying about yourself, and if you'd do, you'd begin to doubt yourself more. I've done that in the past just to fit it in, but I guess that was totally wrong of me, I begin to doubt myself more, I became weak and I was afraid I'd be alone...

But, when I realized that, the change that I impose to myself only brings misfortune, I told myself, whatever happens, I would not change myself again just to make sure others would feel comfortable or to feel contented. Afterall, if a person really wants to stick with you, even if you had the worst personality in the whole world, they would definitely stick with you and adore you like who you are.

My other friend told me that, whatever my personality maybe, she's still willing to follow me and that she's gonna continue her loyalty as long as she lives. That's quite nice, I'd do the same for her actually, we had tough years, she encountered the "worst" in me back in highschool, and I do think that she's not gonna leave me since she's already seen the worst of me long enough before the "other" friend told me what to do.

And as for the person who were too generous enough to run my life, I mean she knows what to do with me better than I do so what else can I say, she's gonna run my life according to what she believes I need. Well thank you, you're too kind, but no. What I need is myself, and I don't need you to point out what's wrong with me because I already know that, you don't need to remind me, besides, whatever happens with my life doesn't concern you, try to run your life first before trying to run others, for both we know, I'm more ahead of you in so many ways.

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